#TNEP

for just this once.. can i just say that i miss him so very much? i know that he's not as good as i think he was before.. but i don't know.. i still can't get him out of my mind.. most of all.. my heart.. :'(

or maybe because today i got a great news that my sister is going to be maried next year..?

i really don't know..

it's not that i'm being jealous that she's gonna marry before i do.. but it just get me to the point where i realized how much i miss HIM so very much...

what should i do..? i can't have this feeling over and over again.. i know he's no good... so why do i have to have it again and again and again still....

those 3 months.. maybe was the best 3 months of relationship i've ever been in my whole entire life... 

i miss you so very much Tonny Nova Elias Pereira.. i do...