another disappointment...

i felt really stupid.. Just by listened to all my friends said that i should enjoy this feeling...

I did enjoy the feeling, now what? It lead me to something i'm affraid of.. Lead me to something i couldn't resist... I'm falling into him... 

When i thought i had a chance, my heart grew fonder.. Thinking maybe there's a chance for me.. But apparently.. Tonite i got the answer...

His choice is not me... Never been me... Never...

If i say i'm not sad. I've been 'ikhlas' to know this, well don't believe me.. I'm ruined.. Once again...

I put my expectations way too high and see where it leads me... To another disappointment... To another heartbroken...

Just when i thought i could have it all, well once again i was wrong.. Well maybe i'll meet some other guys... Some other that wont get me another heartbroken.. I don't know.. 

I'd still really wish it was me... I'm sorry for making this expectations being way too high...

-my feelings for JB-